Story ended

Well there you go, finally got that full stop.. eventhough it wasnt direct, but its clear enough.

So much for saying it was'nt me being the reason why. It was me all the while

Im tired of it. im just tired of it. theres no point of me trying. Ill only be used. nothing more than just a person thats there when you're in need. And leave me like everyone does.

I dont want say i love you, i dont want to say i hate you. i dont even want to say goodbye.

Its bullshit when people say lightning doesnt strike twice. it does, hard and painful. it bites you in the ass and doesnt want to let it go.

I know

I know, ill be there for you anytime

I know, ill be patient with everything we go through

I know, ill be the guy for you who holds you in his arms and never lets go

I know, I've already fallen for you.

One more for the sake of it

Here's a short story.

Guy meets girl. Guy gets a crush on her. he does everything he can to make her happy. he makes the small moments together last. He gets too scared to show his feelings. she goes unnoticed how he really feels. he plays along with the moments he has with her knowing this story of his wont last. his predictions turns true.

She leaves him in the shadows, forgotten, left behind. The heart known to him was lost.
and even after awhile those small memories together still plays along in his brain.
looking up for hope was full of lies playing in his mind.
He soon realises she found someone new. someone better then him. His feeling for being happy for her were not pure. but they were there.

The end.

Im not in love, im just wishing it wont be the same as the story above. I dont want to give up like i always do and let things ruin themselves as they past infront of my eyes. im done reading your cover. give me a chance to let me go through your pages.

Weird thoughts

Im not sure if im pissed or just down right sad. i always ending up alone.. whats the point of writing this. no one would read it

This is it

No, im not talking about Micheal Jackson's new movie.. Im talking about the real effing deal. SPM baby.. yeah, its been running around in our minds like hell for the past year.. and guess what, we're 4 days away from it.. all those years are finally coming to an end.. and its ending with a freaking exam that has your future written all over it. So to those who are taking SPM, i wish you the best and GOOD LUCK.

this isnt helping at all

Getting stressed out about exams is already enough.. but at this certain moment, i just HAD to get myself involved into liking someone.. and it sucks when you start thinking about them..

i treat my blogs like a confession box, so here goes..

For the past month i could finally say, i've got someone to go for.. things just rolled along, texting you a whole lot just made me happy for some reason. finally thinking that i could like someone without seeing the consequences..but knowing you from the first layer is enough to know how you are around things.. Pessemist is the best word i would say. and to me, i know thats a bad thing. The cup you're looking at is half empty. im just wising for you to give me a chance to let me lighten up that black world of yours.. i know theres a bright star shining in you somewhere.. you've just got to look for it..

thoughts of you

well, since things are alot more secluded here.. ill let things out here.. besides its been awhile since my last post

its weird to finally like someone after awhile. but even that still makes me feel weird about things. but she still manages to makes things happy.. i hope theres a happy ending in this new chapter.. im hoping shes the one..