Story ended

Well there you go, finally got that full stop.. eventhough it wasnt direct, but its clear enough.

So much for saying it was'nt me being the reason why. It was me all the while

Im tired of it. im just tired of it. theres no point of me trying. Ill only be used. nothing more than just a person thats there when you're in need. And leave me like everyone does.

I dont want say i love you, i dont want to say i hate you. i dont even want to say goodbye.

Its bullshit when people say lightning doesnt strike twice. it does, hard and painful. it bites you in the ass and doesnt want to let it go.

I know

I know, ill be there for you anytime

I know, ill be patient with everything we go through

I know, ill be the guy for you who holds you in his arms and never lets go

I know, I've already fallen for you.

One more for the sake of it

Here's a short story.

Guy meets girl. Guy gets a crush on her. he does everything he can to make her happy. he makes the small moments together last. He gets too scared to show his feelings. she goes unnoticed how he really feels. he plays along with the moments he has with her knowing this story of his wont last. his predictions turns true.

She leaves him in the shadows, forgotten, left behind. The heart known to him was lost.
and even after awhile those small memories together still plays along in his brain.
looking up for hope was full of lies playing in his mind.
He soon realises she found someone new. someone better then him. His feeling for being happy for her were not pure. but they were there.

The end.

Im not in love, im just wishing it wont be the same as the story above. I dont want to give up like i always do and let things ruin themselves as they past infront of my eyes. im done reading your cover. give me a chance to let me go through your pages.

Weird thoughts

Im not sure if im pissed or just down right sad. i always ending up alone.. whats the point of writing this. no one would read it