I NEED A FLY DAY.. yes, i need to ponteng school.. im too stressed from the rules and teachers that make school a living hell.. seriously, im gonna break soon if i dont get my mind straight.. Adrees, sofia, and muiz.. if you read this, you will know how desperate i am.. so please do a favor and lets FLY
well i got back from my "family day" yesterday.. and i've got to say that it was kind of fun.. i was just happy enough to get out of the house and take my mind of things when i have time for myself..
getting to spend time with the family for once felt good. especially with my dad.. seeing him dance for a warm up the organised made my stomach drop down to the floor cause of how amazingly funny he looked.. its like seeing that Michellin mascot dance.. hahahah
It was helled at The Palace Of the Golden Horses.. and owh my gawd, the place is freaking grand. i mean GRAND. i've never seen that many fake horses in a hotel before.. i understood the phrase of "one of the most expensive hotel in malaysia" cause everything about the place is tip top. sort of i was playing with the gadgets they installed to operate the whole room the whole time . i LOVE the beds, i slept like i baby when i slept on it.. it felt like i was on a cloud. literally. it just sinks you into the featherly like mattress..*drool*. the food was so good , if Paris hilton would stay there, she would go fat in a week. i swear, the whole experience of staying at a really expensive hotel comes with a good outcome.. now its back to books ALL over again.. fuck....
my mind's just practicaly lost.. i cant think properly anymore. its one of those times where you just feel like giving up on everything.. and that moment might just be right now for me.. like i said.. i lost part of myself somewhere and i just cant find it..
Today's the day where a dear friend of mine finally turns 17.. Happy Birthday Adrees. Seriously, i dont know how fast 11 years passed so fast man..
pictures that didnt make it in time:
5 things in your bag
1. Journal
2. Economi notes
3. pencil case
4. my black book
5. calculator
5 things in your wallet
1. 2 tags from Euphoria m.o.s
2. guitar pick
3. young picture of me
4. I.C
5. old europen money
5 favourite things in your room
1. stereo
2. dumbells
3. Air-conditioning
4. big mirror
5. somfy bed
5 things you'd want to do in the near future
1. lose weight and buff up
2. get my driver lisence
3. get a girlfriend
4. Upgrade my computer
5. finally get my Ducati
5 things you're doing right now
1. doing this survey
2. texting my tuition teacher to replace class
3. online on facebook and myspace
4. checking new Top Gear vids on youtube
5. thinking on what to eat
5 people you want to tag
1. Adrees
2. Muiz
3. Sofia
4. Adruce
5. Elaine
14/3/2008
its annoying where i know how well you're doing with your life.. it sucks to know that im still that same guy who never made it anywhere.
well i cant say much on whats going on with the life i know of right now cause.. if i did tell about it, it might just make anyone who reads this fall asleep cause its just the god damn same old.. Literally. i mean, waking up for school and just wasting my 5 hours in school doing pretty much nothing, then back home, tuition.. and thats it.. a freaking schedual i would say..i could actually count how many times i've had at least abit of fun through out these months..
i miss the old days where everyday was a new chapter, and things that i could just look forward to. people that was there every second of the day with me made it even better. Now, some of us got into a relationship, some just became quite and laying low as possible from everyone, and some are just not as close to as we were before.. including parts of MYself changed.. cause theres seriously not much happiness going on. the only thing that keeps me sane now is just the memories that are unforgetable.. its safe to say that it wouldnt hurt to live the memories once more..
so it was an ordinary morning for me, felt good about goin to school and i just felt the urge to study.. i seriously did. it was like the side of me was changing and trying to overcome my bad habbits..
well, ill let you know, that all of that was just a seemless way to phsyc you out.
I was on my way to Agama, and out of no where, PMS called me to head for the dewan.. including adrees, and almost everyone i knew.. it turned out that we were called cause of we were" Budak-budak yang bermasalah".. and i was one of them.. why?? i dont know. it was random call from all the discipline teachers.. probably it was because the day's when i skipped class etc etc..
Encik Mokhtar,our dear headmaster.. came in the hall, giving all of us this smirk face of his.. some of us were probably wondering if we're getting expelled or something..
Well, the guy started giving us his lecture about how irresponsible, reckless, and rude we are towards the school and teachers.. he was making statements like we havent heard all of this from our parents before.. saying that we should be thrown away from this school so they can live a life in SU in peace.
The thing is, some of us has learnt the lessons, and are trying to move on.. for instance?. me. adrees. muiz.gautham.. and all the guys that i know of that is trying to change.. ever since i got back my results, it gave me a clear tight slap.. so getting to repeat that feeling again when i've already moved on, pissed the hell out of me..
i was literally imagining me blowing up the school with C4's when the teachers was giving their lectures..i felt like wacking the shit out of every teacher that came near me.. i bet to you, if all of us had balls to do that today, we would have gone to jail by now and the school would be discipline teacher free..
so in the end, i eneded up leaving the hall pissed off, a slightly bad haircut from Pek Ngoh, and a whole lot more reasons why i should hate school.
Okay, ive got to admit. im addicted to Top Gear. Eventhough they dont have it on tv here in Malaysia, but i enjoy it enough by watching it on youtube.. the cast is just hillarious and they make you seriously fall in love with cars and i just adore the show. Anyways, they have this racing driver which they use him for testing cars out and by giving them a time lap for every review for a car. He's known as the Stig and theres something about him that i just love.. well just recently, they revealed who the Stig really is, and you wont believe who it is..
yes, i do, i feel good. finally. not because of winning or getting anything, but just the whole feeling like theres nothing bothering you. thats all i've ever wanted in life. To have nothing to bother you what so ever.
Right now, im just trying my way as it is, study and revise as much as i can.. this is the literate point where i sacrifice my time and not go out. and i mean not at all.. my bad grades gave me a slap to the face. so im trying my best to change as much as i can during these four months for SPM.. and ill be happy enough to meet my old self back after that.. Sigh*patience is a virtue*.. thats all in my mind right now.
And i've got to do something about my eating habbits lately.. ive been seriously eating the things like i said i wassnt suppose to last 2 months ago.. its so hard losing weight. so many things i have to put into mind to not grow fatter.. i have to start doing something now or i wont win that 50 bucks bet with muiz we made.. no worries im strong.. ill figure something out sooner or later.
